Just going through my twitter before bedtime… Retweeting etc etc… and I thought this was really interesting from a guy that I knew a few years back when I worked at Capital.
“@allanlake I have to delete u. PR stunt or not, I cant be part of this. I truly wish u well and happiness in 2012. V sad m8. U no where I am”
I wasn’t sure how to take it, Because I thought I was the only one part of this. But I think I may have hit a nerve. The message doesn’t say why they can’t be part of this, what ever this is. So being me, I question it a million times… Can they not be a part of me blurting out every single thing thats going on, mostly bad stuff…? Do they think this is actually a PR stunt and I’m abusing the use of what I call therapy to get attention (ie. PR)?
Not one part of me feels bad about the message after I started writing this post, because the guy is really sweet and nice, I have come to the conclusion that with the last few posts being a bit heavy, what with nearly being kicked out the Lake family, going on a 18 pill sleeping tablet bender (not intentionally) and talking about ruining christmas… Perhaps I just made them feel really uncomfortable… And fair play to them, some people really get affected by reading about others sadness, and their troubles… and it ends up troubling them. But hopefully, all is well with them and we can hook up once this is over.
BUT… Once again this blog is totally doing its job… I used to let things get me angry, upset me or push my limits… even small things like a tweet like that… But the idea of this blog was to write everything down, by doing so I rationalise it and give it a natural ending. I’ve never done this before, but in the few days I have been writing this, I’ve done it with everything.
I am really please with how I am doing, the journey feels well on its way. I was about to go bed sad after reading that and worried, but now I have been tapping on my keys for a good 5 minutes… I go to bed clear minded and happy… Not angry, not upset.
Thanks to the dude who tweeted me, because although you don’t want to be a part of this, you kinda have in a really positive way in which you probably won’t realise.
Thank you!
Allan
